Got a sheet hanging in the back yard with a big gigantic bowl of fruit painted upon it, by me and the bean. It's not done yet. The basics, the similarities are clear, it's the details that are still missing. It's for an upcoming Harry Potter Party we're attending. This will be the secret entrance into the kitchen. Got a sky to paint later on for a ceiling. I'm excited and I've got to say, yesterday's paint mixing sure stirred up some new inner desires for me. Well, not new, actually well known to me, part of my closet decor, the urge to paint. Collages have been my thing so far. Have my favorite glues, still learning the paper, and love my sleek, little brown pair of scissors, light, sharp, exact. Stamp carving, I've dabbled in that too.... but painting has alluded me so far (it's hard!). But this mural is easy. No biggy, just primed the old sheet and had at it. My kind of thing, for sure. When it's done will I be able to ditch it? The bean says no, says it's perfect, will save it forever, which is what she says about everything, my little virgo collector, hmmm.
Well, I think I'll poor me some coffee and go have a look. Damn life is good.
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Ample
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Healthy, strong, optimistic, and still surprised to learn I had Hepatitis C for who knows how long (viral load 11,700,000; genotype 1b). But finally after some seriously big decisions, 48 weeks of killing treatment, and 6 months of waiting, I'm now SVR (as of 9/21/07) and that means I did it.
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7 comments:
Ample, you are a great mother! I envy you and feel guilt myself not being "fun mom" for my daughter : (
Ample,
Follow that urge and kick it out of the closet! In my on experience, putting brush to canvas is one of the most fulfilling exercises in what it is to be human. Don't let yourself be slowed by fear of judgements or anxiety that you aren't going to make a masterpiece on the first try... just follow the paint and your own intuition... painting is a dialog, and it can be incredibly gratifying, regardless of whether it hangs in a shi-shi downtown gallery or just your favorite room in the house.
Go for it! (and share the journey with your daughter if she's interested... it's something she'll carry with her for the rest of her life).
easy for you to say Mr. downtown gallery man ;) But seriously, I hear you, you're right, and in fact this bowl of fruit is a masterpiece (of fun anyway!) And my little bean is already the artist, she is open and free with her color and style, really incredible.
Teastar: I called this a masterpiece of fun, but there were more than a few times I got pretty intense about it, monopolized the paint brushes, and obsessed about the lines.... fun mom?.... not always!
You know I'll give it a home! $20?
I had a blank canvas sitting by the side of my desk absolutely all the way through my tx and throughout the whole of that time I had so many ideas as to what to do with it in the end I just didn't have a clue! Then one day my Niece came around recently and saw it and said she needed one for school for a project she had been given. I gave it her along with all my paints and brushes too. What a great relief to have rid of it I thought. And what better person to have given it all too than my dear Niece Daisy who will no doubt go on to become an expert...or at the very least satisfied with her work;) As for me...people say all the time how creative I am and artistic but has that made me do anything about my strange and somewhat ridiculous attitude towards actually putting paint to paper so to speak? God knows what I could have come up with over the last 20 years if only I had had it in me to make some sort of mess with some sort of medium on some sort of surface. I'm sure it will come back to me someday when I least expect it and I shall get all mucky again and make something that I can hang and stare at and say 'I did that.'
As Chris says...Go for it!
Jaex
your photography, Jae, just look at that!!!!! I mean Damn! You've got art all over the place!
and Juancho.... the thing is huge. really huge.
Hi Ample - sounds like fun. Emma (my 8 yr old) created an amazing abstract on an old sheet the other day. I didn't think of priming it...she wanted to leave it hanging on the garden fence and see what the rain would do to the colors :) Now a swirling, ever changing masterpiece.
The HP party sounds like fun! So nice to read of you out there embracing and enjoying life and your little bean to the fullest again. I can't wait :)
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