Wednesday, April 18, 2007
It really was
It really was crazy, when I think of it, shuffling across the yard. The pain, the weakness, really unbelievable. I catch myself 3, 4 times a day, thinking wow, look at me. Look at me now, I can do this: stand in a crowd, walk across a parking lot, bounce up stairs, laugh out loud, eat dinner. No tears, no pain, yet my hep C eyes remain. More distant, watchful, acute. Details, desires, faint then harsh, unavoidable, why wouldn't they be. My smile now for a reason.
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So are these Hep C eyes both good and bad then? Do you see new things with these eyes?
yep..... good and bad. The new view of details can be tough to swallow, impatience with twisted communication, dishonesty, inefficiency, inequality..... but the decisions about what “I” want to do about them are much easier to make, priorities more clear, personal ability more obvious and I know who I am (for the most part anyway - still getting used to that one ;)
I like myself better now, with these eyes.... weird.
"My smile now for a reason" I know what you mean on that- understanding what you have...
:)
you got it cus :)
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