my blog of Hep C - starting 5 months into treatment, 6 months post, and on to SVR.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Once again
my clothes hurt, especially my shoes, but I don't want to be naked, too windy. Even my comfy socks, baggy pants, all scratchy. Lost the bra hours ago. Done crying. I've eaten too much by hardly eating. Like constant PMS. I'm so ready to detox.
Did you manage to find one of those long cashmere body suits?.....You'll be surprised at what you might find on e-bay:)
See that thin white line waving gently in the warm breeze Ample? Please tell me you see it......you do don't you? Don't worry though if you don't sometimes......it doesn't matter.....just stay put and he will be there.....soon...very very soon. But the times you do......That my dear is the finish line.......visible in all it's life preserving qualities. No matter how terrible you are feeling, no matter how fast or how excruciatingly slow you're travelling doesn't matter girl.......this one is mobile and is headed straight for you........long white thin arms outstretched........the most soft, flexible & caring in the whole wide world. Perfect for wrapping around your sore shoulders, lead filled knees, dead head & frightened eyes........ready to take you somewhere......somewhere free of pain....free of muscle damage......free of permanance......somewhere for your eyes to flourish and see again....re-fill your empty tear resevoir.......see real things.....no drugs hampering normality....hammering your body.....flushing out your mind.......leave some behind for me please you cry! Leave me with at least some feelings......a precious fog-free horizon ......some life.....Please! This slip of a finish line, almost at your feet, has something with him.......The rest of your life...& he's coming regardless!
Healthy, strong, optimistic, and still surprised to learn I had Hepatitis C for who knows how long (viral load 11,700,000; genotype 1b). But finally after some seriously big decisions, 48 weeks of killing treatment, and 6 months of waiting, I'm now SVR (as of 9/21/07) and that means I did it.
5 comments:
Did you manage to find one of those long cashmere body suits?.....You'll be surprised at what you might find on e-bay:)
See that thin white line waving gently in the warm breeze Ample? Please tell me you see it......you do don't you? Don't worry though if you don't sometimes......it doesn't matter.....just stay put and he will be there.....soon...very very soon. But the times you do......That my dear is the finish line.......visible in all it's life preserving qualities.
No matter how terrible you are feeling, no matter how fast or how excruciatingly slow you're travelling doesn't matter girl.......this one is mobile and is headed straight for you........long white thin arms outstretched........the most soft, flexible & caring in the whole wide world. Perfect for wrapping around your sore shoulders, lead filled knees, dead head & frightened eyes........ready to take you somewhere......somewhere free of pain....free of muscle damage......free of permanance......somewhere for your eyes to flourish and see again....re-fill your empty tear resevoir.......see real things.....no drugs hampering normality....hammering your body.....flushing out your mind.......leave some behind for me please you cry! Leave me with at least some feelings......a precious fog-free horizon ......some life.....Please!
This slip of a finish line, almost at your feet, has something with him.......The rest of your life...& he's coming regardless!
Jaex
Wow.
You promise Jae?
"He was ever precise in promise-keeping" - William Shakespeare.
I promise Ample!
I see what you mean. Now my priorities are comfortable vs sexy. I waer sport shoes with jelly inside. (I jelly)
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