Reaching

OK
one part notifying past
will call
compose letter
send it

Other part
notifying self
risking tarnish
of my own idyllic youth
innocence
purity (of intent)
sense of self, vibrant, strong
safe
binge-ful
feels false

I had always counted on binging
cutting lose with extremes
from time to time
some can stay, maybe
some can not

Forming new pastures
morning the loss of others
morning my own Fool
is it time?
I love that Fool
and yet it's easier to reach for the moon
now
inform, protect, accept